Thursday, January 24, 2008

7:55


7:55
-- cutting my only road
through gravel spit

-- leftside of orange roadwork
diamonds seven days in the
only bikeway on Vancouver
Airport

and I'm an engine smoking this January morning

-- dumb steel monsters cornering on my shoulder.

Cartoon cut-out flag gal looking away inside her smoking white van,
warm as in her house.

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

Out of the Blue

Haven't we all experienced this?

Thinking about some distant pal: suddenly distant pal phones, shows up, seemingly out of the blue. Okay -- even if looking for a loan.

Maybe we call this coincidence.

Or -- say it's one of those days -- crazily busy -- and we're hurtling through it -- cussing under our breath that we can't even catch our breath, let alone lunch -- but, at day's end, seeing the whole of the day that happened, see that only after done with Job1 did Job2 show up to be worked next. Likewise for Jobs 3 and 4. Like somewhere some unseen dispatcher was waving in each part of the day, but only exactly when I was ready for it. Only that at the time it hadn't felt like help -- all those coincidences.

Just last night, searching for longago scribbled notes perhaps for writing into something else -- some at the time interesting observations about myself while playing Fable Lost Chapters -- and having only the vaguest map in mind of where I stashed those notes, I started in on the likeliest: papers piled up three inches (which I had intended to organize sometime). After ten minutes of turning paper, glancing and skimming passages, I was ready to try the other approach: stuck in my fingers about three-quarters of the height and flipped the thing over.

Uhuh -- I kid you not! -- EXACTLY in my notes where the Fable stuff started.

Smiled. Made that little hmmph!, indicative of only mildest surprise, mixed with contentment. I've not been creeped out by this kind of happening for a long time.

Don't know where it comes from. Call it the Hand of God made manifest. Fate. Karma. Some cosmic alignment. Meaningful coincidence, or not. Maybe it is just brain wiring -- the map there all along inside that ninety percent of grey matter I don't have the key to -- and perhaps I just triggered the memory without knowing how, and so call it magical.

I won't presume to know. Perhaps it's best just to note its occurence in a little life and smile at the mystery of it -- so it doesn't turn off.

And say Thanks.

Thursday, January 17, 2008

Just a Test

Thought I'd be clever and try some of this Auto-Posting I've heard about --but, of course, haven't begun to research -- even now haven't gone searching for in Blogger Help -- however, since I'm in here anyway, removing my auto-post test-post (which did not work), just figured I might as well post this for the practice.

Prob'ly delete this later. For now, and here, this is typing practice -- or better -- thinking exercise -- writing on my feet, or scribbling.

Work eats up the week: leaves me wasted most evenings. Weekends just aren't long enough: should go three days, at least. And weekends are usually when I can post, which leaves those five days following when this little place in cyberspace fades, then vanishes from the search engines. Okay, call it vanity: I've gotten fond of posting - seeing me pop up in a google search! But I don't want to post empty This is what I had for Breakfast stuff.

So - Why not try this Auto-Posting? - Schedule something already prepared that will automatically post on a particular day. Sounds a nifty and useful little tool. Figured I could suss it out just by doing, or rather trying, just like some guy trying to assemble some assembly-required furniture -- and the manual's right here -- but he's certain he doesn't need it.

So I typed the test-post -- went into the post options' sub-menu beneath the post window -- set a future date and time -- then saved the post and had a look in Edit Posts.

Saw my test-post had saved as a draft -- which set groggy me mumbling This ain't gonna work -- because, logically, a draft is a document being worked on, not ready, and not okay'd to publish.

Still, figured I'd just let it sit, let the clock tick-tock and world turn -- until it posts, or doesn't, come the hoped for moment. I had no time at the time to search out any how-to: one-a.m., Monday morn, and I had to be up at six-thirty for work. And it wasn't anything that HAD to be posted --just a test.

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

Xbox, The Movie

Watched my Dad rig camcorder through vcr one family Sunday, for showing his steam train side-trip in the Okanagan, and one of those cartoon light bulbs flashed above my head - My xbox is just another line-in device! - Bet I CAN record right off it - Make movies of my xbox fun, for those nights when I’m just too tired to do it well, however need that little gamer fix.

And - Yes, it worked.

Seems logical that the set-up should also work with a dvr, however I haven’t got a dvr, so cannot test it, and HDMI and the home theatre will have to wait until I win the lottery.

Have just the most basic of gaming rigs: composite audio-video ins and outs, and teevee that accepts a line-in device. These days, even the connectors and connections come colour-coded, so laying out your movie studio is easy as easy can be: xbox cable into vcr - vcr into tv - outputs to inputs - yellow to yellow - white to white - red to red.

With all cables plugged in, came time to power up the rig.

Selected LINE-IN on the tv remote. Some teevee menus call this AUX (Auxiliary), even AV.

Selected LINE-IN on the vcr remote.

Got that warm fuzzy feeling - seeing that friendly xbox menu - which showed that everything was hooked up properly.

Then readied a blank tape in the vcr. Standard Play (SP) for record speed made for cleanest video to my eye.

Started a game - and pressed RECORD on the vcr remote. Naturally, just had to pause both game and vcr: just checking that I was actually recording gameplay.

Using this method, I made mini-movies of favourite and visually nice levels in Fable Lost Chapters, and Oddworld Stranger’s Wrath.

I died too many times trying for the whole of Halflife 2: had to put the picture on hold. My stunt work was inconsistent. And couldn’t get Peter Jackson to take on the editing.

Monday, January 14, 2008

Warning All Lab Rats!


Just spotted online another Invitation to Participate in a university psych-department survey: studying motivations, et cetera, among video gamers.

Hmm. Looking for willing test subjects.

I dunno - sometimes the gamer in me is more than willing to play - but it’s Sunday night, gotta go t’work Monday, don’t wanna run a maze, and don’t need my brain fractionated!

Sorry.

Remembered I’d participated a couple years back in one such study - and just found my dusty journal entry - which explains all I’m thinking on the subject, and without cussing:

So...USC Annenberg's database is in top form. Filled out a long survey last month, conscientiously, because I think video games culture could do with some researching.
I may play violent games, occasionally, but I know what's real and not, and Right from Wrong. Figured I should give them some data from this old man.


I had to base my answers on a game of my choosing and I chose Fable Lost Chapters. If any game can play with the gamer's head about Right and Wrong and Choices, it's Fable (I never played Black and White).

At the finish of that long survey, I generated my keycode -and it was confirmed by them - for Part Two of the survey that they invited me back in two weeks to complete. Draw prize, too: sixty bucks, US, at Amazondotcom (prob'ly wanting to make sure the winning obsessed gamers buy a good healthful book).

So. Today, I'm back.

My keycode could not be retrieved from their database.

Of course, this could be part of their research, the second part of the experiment: Say there's an error and log how persistent the survey participant plays it, how many attempts, how many different combinations of the keycode the gamer may try; they can, when all is said and done, log the instances of the erroneous keycode.

Well, then, I just had to play along...for a while. Tried a few variants. All CAPS. Some CAPS.

But, smart lab rat me, seeing as I'd be getting no reward, no emotional gratification, as one of those USC lab coats may put it - no cheese - I turned tail and left. Couldn't even leave a turd on the floor of their maze!

Ehh...Friday, yet, May 19, that's right, and still '06.

Saturday, January 12, 2008

Sudoku Madness




Never guessed it might happen to me. One quiet lunch hour at work. Brain idling, getting up to mischief, googled S-U-D-O-K-U: curious - only curious - wondering what all the fuss was about - and tipped headlong into the Sudoku zone.

Free online Sudoku - And here’s the link to that great website: http://www.websudoku.com/.

All the very worst temptations - Free! - graduated difficulty - simple and non-threatening interface - so even I might handle it.

Finished my first ever sudoku inside fifteen minutes - despite the usual lunch time interruptions at work.

Innocently - believing I could stop anytime - that I didn’t NEED this in an unhealthy needful sense - well, I started another.

Then work, cruel and unrelenting taskmaster, dragged me away - but I had not hit that red-X - not shut the browser - only paused my puzzle, minimized the window, hiding it on the taskbar with Outlook Express Inbox, Word, and Excel.

All the remains of that hard Thursday I stole sudoku moments - ignorant - puffing on an inviting habit. Seven sudoku under my belt by day’s end.

I couldn’t get enough - I admit it - and did not care if I presented a glazed expression and if anyone did notice it when I surfaced to meet them.

Quickly getting that I could also have my sudoku offline, by the simplest of means - not even needing a printer - I took to copying the free puzzles onto the backs of junk faxes. Then strips and scraps kept handy round my desk for phone messages. So, by these devices I got my meager supply of sudoku at home.

Online, my puzzles came timed, and graded by time completed. Annoying feature. Time trials I expected, sometimes enjoyed, say playing Project Gotham Racing, or Michael Ironside as Sam Fisher racing the clock to de-fuse bombs in the belly of a ship. Why oh why would I want to race through sudoku? My sudoku should last - be like buttery smooth caramel - one good long chew!

So, contented somewhat, digested my low-tech puzzles at home. Of course there weren’t enough of them. Seated and comfy in the littlest room, often they ran out before I felt sated. Clearly, there would never be enough.

Sure, I could copy a free batch each day for every night -and there were sudoku books, even gamer handhelds with little displays, quite reasonably priced - however I was born frugal, the kind who writes on the clean side of a junk fax, and I couldn’t be reasonable.

Found at last a peg and board sudoku while exploring my neighbourhood toonie emporium: one-buck-fifty, and taxes. Made in China. Blue plastic board perforated in the nine-by-nine sudoku grid. One-to-nine times nine yellow number pegs: all intended to be twisted free and plugged into the board grid - and only for the moment nicely readable on one flat plastic twig frame, just like the fiddly parts trees in model boat kits.

Logically, saw that I would get just the first puzzle: frustration after, because after all eighty-one number pegs completed the sudoku, I’d have left me this empty, useless, twig frame - and for any more play have to set out eighty-one number pegs, in order, across a flat surface - and a rock-steady one.

Immediately after game one, only the once toyed with the stupid idea of picking out the numbers from the plastic honey tub I’d store them in. Maddening - impossible to play - rattling through my honey-pot random number generator - hoping chance will give the peg I want!

To solve the problem: Tore me a box lid roughly to size, trimmed it, made it presentable, jotted down the nine-by-nine grid, and with a big nail punched holes through it like a crib board for all eighty-one pegs.

Mounted the pegs, one though nine across, and nine rows down. Felt in that moment ready to play, content again, though only that moment, because the reality of the package blurb hit me, swift as Monday after the weekend, that this came with only the one hundred sudoku included.

Wednesday, January 9, 2008

Ded. Reckoning

I have intent, though no plan here, no course set - except that I intend to write - which, sure, might be like captaining a voyage in search of new worlds without chart or compass, nor floatie twig on knotted string, no glass trickling sand, no chronometer, no sense of time, and prepared only with schoolboy science about one star bright above my home. Let’s say perhaps not even knowing that star will be lost beyond a certain latitude.

Still anyway - what’s being alive without the adventure and the trying - eh?! There may even be a thing there like chocolate for fattening the history books.

Thanks - I welcome your company.